I am so agitated now. As if my whole world has crumbled to pieces. I feel so lost. I dread the weekends because they make me realize how far I am from the ones I love and want to be with. It is these times when my mind is shouting questions. Why?? What was the need? We all were so happy together then why did we have to part ways? You say go with the flow and go where life takes you. But wasn't this what we chose? We could have chosen something else. We could have chosen to be together. It is so easy to think positive when your surrounded by all the loved ones. It sucks when you have to face everything alone. After being a part of the daily routine here I realize the more I understand the more there is to understand. It is such a complicated matter. I can't share it with anyone because I don't know anyone here. I try talking about it with my two favourite people but they have their own life too. I don't want to look like I am cribbing all the time. I am torn between behaving good and speaking my heart out. The constant conflict between keeping my self-respect intact, keeping mum because that is what all good, mature people do and feeling frustrated with every second thats passing by, I am lost totally and looking for the right direction...
