A perfect end to a busy week. I am down with a temperature and have a sore throat. My head is heavy and legs are aching. And I haven't even slept much. Being social comes with a price! If this is what is happened to me I wonder what marriage does to the bride and groom. Hate to think! Anyway last week I attended two weddings. Both of my school mates and both love marriages. It was good to see school mates after 10 years! damn! Kisne socha tha aise milenge. But the re-union was great. Everyone's changed. Some are married, some are looking and some are far from even thinking(read me :p). But whatever grudges I have against marriage and love I would be lying if I say I wasn't a li'l dreamy about all this shit. Especially after seeing my friends doing 'it' with so much surety! I secretly felt like I should give a shot at meeting boys for marriage... who knows it might just click and I would be experiencing marital bliss soon. I guess I have been sleeping on this for more than a few days now until this morning when I woke up with a horrendous glitch in my throat and aches everywhere. Shit shit! I was thrown from the skies. Mornings are seriously my reality checks. I got work to do and my lappy has broken down. I have deadlines to meet but with such a heavy head it feels impossible to even start working. I have been on this macbook for the last two hours and all I have managed to do is write a blog! See... I am distracted and I cant afford to be! SHeeeeeeet!!! 

And I am coined as Aracelia - N calls me that. Aracelia is latin for treasure which is what Nidhi means in nine other languages. Besides calling me Aracelia he also used to call me Kokeshi which is Japanese name for a doll. Then there are our standard jokes, our talks about my career, his life, his apple of the eye-S and our love for food! I am amazed to see I bonded with him so well. I never knew it would be so easy. But I have realised when there's an instant connection between two people the association is long lived. With him it is atleast that way because there are no efforts, no pretences.. we are just what we are. And that is what matters right?

And now I have started dreaming of work. All the lions and tigers of the Bandipur National park are on a loose. What is funny in a waking state was very scary then because in the dream there was a bunch of guys on bikes that came rushing out of the sanctuary and behind them were oversized lions and tigers(Maybe they are that huge in reality... kabhi dekhe nahi na). All I remember was seeing the massive face of lion and running away from the sanctuary. But like in all my dreams I was unable to run as fast as I wanted. My feet were stuck to some invisible thing. I had someone running along with me, a friend whose face I don't remember. We must be a few meters away when someone from behind screamed that it was safe- the flock of more than hundred lions and tigers couldn't break the wooden door(in my dream it was wooden and just like any normal gate!) and they were back inside the sanctuary thanks to the lanky security guard who shooed them away!

And then it was some tring tring somewhere... My alarm.. my four alarms! Ha ha

These 6 days

Been almost a week since I resigned but I feel I never left the place. Actually the place hasn't left me yet.

Have been 6 days without a full time job but haven't been free even for a second. Have worked from home for longer hours than I usually do.

Haven't watched a flick. Have hardly met Aditi. Have hardly spoken with ma or pa. Have been home all day working.

Have been up until 3 am for the last 6 days. Have wondered about how to manage all the projects at hand.

Have a disrupted morning routine and I don't approve of that.

Its 1:25 am now and I should go to sleep for my wake up call tomorrow is going to be from Mr CB of Philly! :P

Work work and more work. Thats all there is in head and here. What do I say? I asked for it...

Its 12:32 am and I am finally calling it a day.

Flip! And dint that rhyme! :D

Yawnnnnnnnnnnnn... Goodnight guys. Rest Well

I am moving from here...

The weather is playing its magic again and the rain drops have brought lots of nostalgia along. I cant help but say I am one of those few who have had a fantastic start to her career. One I do what I love doing and two the people that I have worked with are very encouraging and supportive.

But like all good things come to an end this will too. Within few hours I will be gone from here. And wont I miss being here? Yes. I will miss our little ascendum where I spent hours thinking, dreaming and writing articles. I am recollecting my times with K, the way we organised our work so that we could deliver everything on time. We checked our emails everyday and waited with crossed fingers for feedbacks after deliveries and how there were sighs of relief when there was no email and how we celebrated when the client appreciated our work. There was one time when we spent a whole month re-doing articles. My heart had skipped a beat reading the harsh feedback and that was one time when I sensed work pressure. We got on with the re-work which we continued even on Sundays. After we made the final deliveries we checked the email everyday with crossed fingers and wished there was no more re-work. So when the client reverted back saying 'The articles look great' I slumped into my chair and thanked the almighty. Whoa what an eventful month that was.

Little little things which make up these 6 months here are what will make me miss this place. I will miss being interrupted by N in the middle of the work and P's tap-tap on the glass door. I'll miss N and his handshake, his affectionate gestures, his protective streak and his amazing sense of humor. I'll miss our chai breaks and endless yakking sessions. The HR's cabin is one place after my ascendum where I had some good laughs. Thank you N (you know the N-N thing is gonna stay for long and you're right, this place was just a beginning to our long long association!!). I'll miss A, the li'l mature girl without whom life here would be dull. Who am I gonna discuss clothes and chirkonda with? I'll miss being called 'Nidhi didi'... huggs bachhe!

I will miss listening to K talk about her endless list of prospective grooms. I wish her good luck with all the decisions she takes.. I'll be glad if the decision are hers. K I never told you this but what you are now is what I was few years ago - naive and unsure. Every time we have discussed issues concerning you I have found similarity in your confused state of mind with mine. It is understandable and something I can smile at now. But you know what, time and circumstances change everybody. If you make the choices and not take what is given to you you will find your confidence shoot up to another level. Would love to see you in charge of your own life. Good luck howratt!!!!

Another thing which makes this place special is my tête-à-tête with P. Every time I have spoken to him I have realized he is a different breed, the kind which is rare to find these days. He has helped me overcome my hesitations and answered even the stupidest of my questions. Thanks P..for your patience. His advices, encouraging smile and his non-nonsensical behavior are admirable. Bless you!

Today is my last day at work here. Next week I start my new job. I am looking forward to the new opportunities in store but am skeptical about the kind of people I meet. I know I am going to make comparisons with the friends and colleagues I met here. I am only wishing the place is, if not more, but as good as this one.

My favorites...

Here are the words which are an all time turn ons..

jaane kya chahe mann bawra
ankhiyan mere saawan chala
feelin' blue...

tere bin yun main kaise jiya
kaise jiya tere bin...

mad about you...

choo lene se hararat badhi
kaise kahein tumhe ajnabee
ho tum zindagi...
kab thi khabar kya tha yakeen
ban ke lagan ban ke khushi
bas jaaoge mujh mein kahin...

desperate for changing
starving for truth
i'm closer to where i started
i'm chasing after you
i am falling even more in love with you...

tu aa gaya yun nazar mein
jaise subah dopahar mein
madhoshi yun hi nahi dil pe chhayi niyat ne li angdaayi.
chuaa tune kuch is tarah behki fiza behka samaa
o meri jaan...

kabhi dil ke kareeb tumhe mere naseeb yun laayenge socha na tha.
ek chahat ka pal sab sawalon ka hal yun paayenge socha na tha...

yun tutne ki sab chutne ki
vajah hi nahi thi bachi
hum dono mein kaisi thi chupki
jagah hi nahi thi bachi
phir mein chup kyu hui phir thu chup kyu hua
aisa kuch kyo hua bolo bolo na...

tum kyun chale aate ho
harroz in khaabon mein
chupke se aa bhi jaao
ek din meri baahon mein
tu mere khwaabon mein jawaabon mein sawaalon mein
har din chura tumehein main laata hoon khayalon mein
kya mujhe pyaar hai...

din bhar kuch miss karta hoon
jaane kaise khwaahish karta hoon
bheed mein tanha rehta hoon
dil kya kare...

ho gam ke badal mujhpe tham jaane de
bechaainyon ko mujhse takraane de
dukhti ho koi baat mujhpe aane de...

aasma ko bhi yeh haseen raat hai pasand
uljhi uljhi saanson ki awaaz hai pasand
moti luta rahi hain sawan ki badliyaan
baahon ke darmiyaan...

tere bin saanu soniya
koi hor nayio labhna
jo deve rooh nu sakun
ne chukke jon nakhra mera...

kitni der tak tum baatein karogi
filmon ki aur falsafon ki
kitni der aarzoo aad mein chupegi
coffee ki aur kehkaho ki
kitni der tak uss dil mein rahega
mere naam par ek sawaal...

dil khudgarz hai fisla hai yeh fir haath se
kal uska raha ab hai tera is raat se...

i play alone with you inside my mind
and in my dreams i've kissed your dreams a 1000 times
i sometimes see you pass outside my door
hello...

ho gayee hai mohabbat tumse
aa gaye palkon mein khaab banke
reh gaye sar-aankhon par
bade hain ehsaan humpe
dil ne kiya jo asar...

agar main kahoon mujhe tumse mohabbat hai
meri bas yehi chahat hai to kya karoge...

my dil goes hmmm...

tere bin there aint no desire
tere bin my worlds on fire
tere bin i cant fly higher...

awarapan banjarapan
ek hala hai seene mein
har dum har pal bechaaini hai
kaun bhala hai seene mein
kahan kiske liye hai mumkin
sab ke liye ek sa hona
thoda sa dil mera bura hai
thoda bhala hai seene mein...

gali gali ghume dil tujhe dhundhein
tere bin tarse nayan
laagi tumse mann ki lagan
lagan laagi tumse mann ki lagan...

have i told you lately that i love you
have i told you there is no one else above you
you fill my life with gladness
take away all my sadness
ease my trouble thats what you do...

anjaana dil kya jaane
begaana dil kya jaane
darr jaata hai kyun paake khushiyan
yeh jo main bekaraar hun
har lamha ishq to nahi
yeh jo mujhe bekhudi si hai
tu kahin mujh mein to nahi...

teri tamanna teri justju hai
mujhe aajkal bas teri aarzoo hai...

to pHir aaO mujhko saTaO
tO phiR aAo mujhko rulAo...

tumhe pata to hoga, tumhi pe main fida hun
tumhe hai jabse chaha hawaon mein udta hun
tumhi har pal mein tum aaj mein tum kal mein
hey shona hey shona...

After effects of Ajab Prem ki Gazab Kahani..

Watched the movie? No? Go watch it and you'll understand why I am soo sugary. Who wants intelligence and science fiction, war and action? Not me! I am happy watching romantic comedies with happy endings. 

The following lines are from this self proclaimed hopelessly romatic useless girl to that perfect someone somwhere :P.. Hope he is/will be reading this:

Whenever life seems to drift you away from me, I can't help but cry. You've grown to be such a part of me that without you life is no more than a desperate sigh. They do say love comes and goes, and to that I disagree. So, here's my hand, take it and don't let go of me.

- Stolen from somebody who stole it from somewhere!!!

76th Post

Last was my 75th post. I congratulate myself. But I am rather ashamed at the pace I am updating my blog! Three constant years and just 75 posts. I haven't even touched breakeven! :P

Whatever whatever...

Nevermind, I'd rather congratulate myself for the consistency which is so hard to find these days...

Not too long before I touch the 100 benchmark. Till then keep reading :)

Conversations keep me wondering. I guess everyone's looking for answers to the question 'What do I want?'. Who are the people who succeed in finding the correct answer to that? How does one stick to decisions? How do people who make commitments, keep them? How do they stay focussed? What drives them to stick to what they promise? Fear can’t be the only factor because it frustrates. What sort of things motivate them? Does everyone have a phase in their life when all they have in the head is questions? I am looking for something to write about but everytime I sit down I forget what to think of! I am not blank but so full of things that my ideas hum in my brain and numb my head. It stops me from materialising thoughts. I delve deep into my own philosophies and forget about writing.