Almost 22! I had never wondered before today just how many people I have met till date. A million?? Maybe, I must have. So many faces and so many more faces. Some have looked at me with adulation and some have merely stared. Some smiled, others frowned. Some had tears in their eyes and some had understanding. Some were such that I could go on looking at them forever. Some motivated me and some made me feel dejected. Some turned green with envy, some, red with anger. Some turned pink while some turned crimson. The faces that had once talked with me or had laughed at a joke that I had cracked. The faces that had questioned and the faces that had answered. The face that turned around just to have one more look at me and the face I wanted to look at for one last time. The faces that made me laugh and the faces that angered me. Faces, faces and more faces. Most of them have dissolved into the vastness of the space but there are some that have still remained. They still cling on to me, onto my subconscious. Thats why I dream...meaningless. Failing to comprehend what makes those faces re-appear. Maybe there is still some connection left. Some conversation with them that I must have left incomplete due to lack of expression or because I thought it was too late. At this, my mind questions again-Whats the right time? Isnt it true that circumstances have to be created? Then why do you wait for things to happen?Isnt it in our hands to take things forward. No tom, dick or harry would come and do it for us! Why do you wait then? Patience-When your aim is clear you pursue it with all the patience you can have. But when you dont know what the end is gonna be what do you do? Wait and go on waiting? Thats foolishness. Waiting patiently for things you know will happen is different than waiting for things that you guess would take place. Banking on nothing at all. You dont fight a losing battle,do you? Thats foolishness again. So what do you do? Move ahead. Leave the past behind, let the bygones be bygones and start afresh! Make the mind your slave, control all the feelings, put a stop to all the fluctuating visions and prepare yourself for the bigger and better things in life. Life- a four letter word that encapsulates everything that a human being was born to experience. Mind- another four letter word thats absolutely tailor-made. Ready to fit every skull. Ready to cater to all your demands. The most fascinating piece of God's work. He must have created it only when his sole competitior was he,himself. Mind- It tricks you, it fools you, it plays for you, it plays with you. You hallucinate. You foresee. You may never know the difference. You might go crazy and still believe your the sanest man alive! Thats the power of mind!
Sitting here and letting my mind wander here there everywhere I realize that almost everything in my life is planned. Planned by no one but me.The faces, the incidents, the emotions, everything was always somewhere in the cosmos and I simply went through all of it as and when my mind and physical body was capable to handle it. What more? All of it was unknowingly thought of at some point of time and space at a very early stage of my life. The once passing thoughts took a physical form and its only then that I realized that all the good, bad, love, hatred is in the head. I am a body of flesh and blood possessing the most powerful and the most intelligent motor anyone could ever think of designing-the mind. And as I shall grow this motor will work towards designing my life as and how I wish it to be. In the process I will blame and thank equally. And thus more and more incidents will gather to make up what I will later call as my life-story. My mind being the sole object bearing the responsibility for whatever takes place in the run.
Whats in store? I will never know but a thousand encounters with innumerable faces and hundred odd situations I have already been in and out of teach me that however well prepared I am, I am still not ready for the unexpected. For this time the unexpected being Love...and its still blooming!!
