It is funny when I think of it but I have not written much about spirituality. I have mentioned it casually but never pointed out the technicalities. Lately I have been discovering a lot of things about myself. Because I have been spiritually trained, I tend to pay too much attention to whats happening inside me. Being a Virgo and a spiritually inclined at that sort of ups my critical and introspective quotient. Sometimes I really think I have always been a natural at that and just hit home an year back when I first took a conscious step towards disciplining myself. And the disciplining has more than just worked.
For starters I am way to aware and can understand way too much. This sort of amuses me sometimes because I end up having multiple conversations with myself where I argue and counter argue. I play all parts and thats my way of understanding my life situations.
Coming back to spirituality, I don't think I can articulate enough words to really put the message across the way it should be put, but I am definitely putting out the effect it has on me for everyone else to read.
I am inconsistent with my spiritual practices and I consider that the biggest factor responsible for the way I deal with people around me and the way I deal with situations.
Now if I am consistent with my practices and if I dutifully do what I learnt back there then this is what I observe in me :
Nothing bothers me, nothing affects me strongly, there are hardly moments of doubts.
Through regular meditation I have been able to develop my intuition. By intuition I mean the subtle nag that directs action and thought.
I have a stabler mind.
I stop running fighting circumstances.
I am content.
I am able to concentrate one pointedly on the task at hand.
I can understand when the need to prioritise arises, when I need to halt, make shifts and re-prioritise stuff.
I ideate more.
I remain alert and aware all the time.
I think quickly, create and organise better.
I learn to break my thought process, re arrange the patterns and then continue arranging.
I listen more, do more.
I think less, be less impatient.
I learn to differentiate spontaneity from impulse.
And after all this and more there is this most important thing which is worth sharing :
There is a lot less of 'I' and more the realisation of it.
