Monday, March 12, 2007

The truth,the whole truth and nothin but the truth...

I got married!!! Shocked??!!! Ok let me re-tool my lexicon. In my mind I am married to him. No! 'The mind' belongs solely to him. I got married to him in my heart and I am still to find a word in the dictionary that best describes my current state-of-mind. Is there something beyond bliss??? If yes and anyone finds a word for it do let me know. Because its much more than the words ever had the power to express. I never knew the person who had all the qualities to become the most hated person became the most important Man of my life.
Its funny, our love story. We met on the dance floor, just a perfect place for two people to fall in love, but we!! Nothing happened there despite of two hours every week of looking into each others eyes. It never occurred to me then that he would be The One it would be difficult to imagine my life without.
Its just been a few months that we met and it already feels as if I have lived a lifetime with him. He was right when he said distances are only of miles because mentally he is always besides me, sometimes looking at me when I am sleeping and sometimes when I am out with friends. Things started happening when we got talking on the phone. His not-so-appealing voice became a need gradually. His talks, an addiction. It took me a while to realize what was happening. He would agree whole heartedly(mindedly, hubby-bee??ha ha ha) if I say his 'Maybe's' became mine and to a large extent, my laconic 'Yes' and 'Nos' now belong to him. If my giggles make him smile, its his deep voice that keeps me awake every night. If my indifference irritates him, its his 'raje' and 'bachha' that make my heart melt.

Many a times I wondered, will I ever achieve the heights of loving someone the way I have wanted to and will I ever find someone who would comprehend me exactly how its meant to be.

Does John Galt exist? After meeting my husband I would say Yes. Someone so perfect that my imperfections were reflected clearly, someone so generous that it left me wordless. So giving, that it became difficult not to reciprocate. He, for me is a thousand things. A wax statue at Madame Tussaud's which I could only admire, a distant star that I could only wish upon, the Porsche in the showroom which I could only dream of. It wasn't love at first sight for me but now that it has happened its growing with every passing day.
And after my constant arguments with him over what is right, the heart or the mind, I have concluded both of them are because his mind agreed with my heart and look where we have reached....The highest peak of TOGETHERNESS!!!

I don't know what Perfect Love is. But if ever I was asked to define it I would say-
'Its not about liking and disliking the same things but its about mutually agreeing on the most important aspects of life. Its about being sure that you will love the person more than yesterday despite the distance that separates and the time that passes by. Its about waiting everyday, patiently to listen to that one voice that will make the rest of your day. Its not about possessing him but its about setting him free, letting him go.
Love is, when its about 'Him' and the 'I' blended harmoniously..'


By the way, I never told you this Mr. Diplomat, someone once told me "People find their life-parters on the dance floor."



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