I got married!!! Shocked??!!! Ok let me re-tool my lexicon. In my mind I am married to him. No! 'The mind' belongs solely to him. I got married to him in my heart and I am still to find a word in the dictionary that best describes my current state-of-mind. Is there something beyond bliss??? If yes and anyone finds a word for it do let me know. Because its much more than the words ever had the power to express. I never knew the person who had all the qualities to become the most hated person became the most important Man of my life.
Its funny, our love story. We met on the dance floor, just a perfect place for two people to fall in love, but we!! Nothing happened there despite of two hours every week of looking into each others eyes. It never occurred to me then that he would be The One it would be difficult to imagine my life without. Its just been a few months that we met and it already feels as if I have lived a lifetime with him. He was right when he said distances are only of miles because mentally he is always besides me, sometimes looking at me when I am sleeping and sometimes when I am out with friends. Things started happening when we got talking on the phone. His not-so-appealing voice became a need gradually. His talks, an addiction. It took me a while to realize what was happening. He would agree whole heartedly(mindedly, hubby-bee??ha ha ha) if I say his 'Maybe's' became mine and to a large extent, my laconic 'Yes' and 'Nos' now belong to him. If my giggles make him smile, its his deep voice that keeps me awake every night. If my indifference irritates him, its his 'raje' and 'bachha' that make my heart melt.
Many a times I wondered, will I ever achieve the heights of loving someone the way I have wanted to and will I ever find someone who would comprehend me exactly how its meant to be.
Does John Galt exist? After meeting my husband I would say Yes. Someone so perfect that my imperfections were reflected clearly, someone so generous that it left me wordless. So giving, that it became difficult not to reciprocate. He, for me is a thousand things. A wax statue at Madame Tussaud's which I could only admire, a distant star that I could only wish upon, the Porsche in the showroom which I could only dream of. It wasn't love at first sight for me but now that it has happened its growing with every passing day.
And after my constant arguments with him over what is right, the heart or the mind, I have concluded both of them are because his mind agreed with my heart and look where we have reached....The highest peak of TOGETHERNESS!!!
I don't know what Perfect Love is. But if ever I was asked to define it I would say-
'Its not about liking and disliking the same things but its about mutually agreeing on the most important aspects of life. Its about being sure that you will love the person more than yesterday despite the distance that separates and the time that passes by. Its about waiting everyday, patiently to listen to that one voice that will make the rest of your day. Its not about possessing him but its about setting him free, letting him go.
Love is, when its about 'Him' and the 'I' blended harmoniously..'
By the way, I never told you this Mr. Diplomat, someone once told me "People find their life-parters on the dance floor."
7 comments:
Thanks for the comment. Taras gaya tha kisi ki comment ke liye :-) People are so selfish these days. Everyone is busy creating their own blogs that they don't read others blogs. As usual, your writings are good as compared to my random thoughts. They're well organized. I think a lot of things, but i need to streamline them into a proper way.
The quotes are from a sitcom called "Seinfeld". Check it out on Star World at 7:30 on weekdays. As for the Linux thing, lets just say I love it. Used to have a good grip on in when I was working in Elitecore, need to get back to being the uber geek
Btw, congratulations on your "Marriage" :-)
seem to be highly inspired and influenced by Ayn Rand...great description about the minute details....sometimes we take such lovely and wonderful things for granted....frm what i see(read actually) u seem to b deeply , madly in love(must b a great feeling after all.. :P)...heres wishing u all the best fr the future!!!
btw..came across ur profile through harsha.
time is mightier than our feelings..how many times it happens when we used to go to some exciting place in our childhood and we used to be in a "bliss"..lolz but hey someone remember whwat used to happen we we were cumin back:-(.
cherishing the moments is the only bliss but based on that try to start living in the future is something i cant think is a good thing...
These are just my ideas and have nothing to do with n e one personally. but yeah now to sound a bit ethical : best of luck gurlie! but not for the ongoin things but for ya future and may ur happiness persist(though change is the nature of rule and evryone knows what happens when someone try to go against nature).
Hope people get mature soon.take care
seems to be krishan ki meera.....divine love is descending upon u and u are blessed...sharing your blissfulness is the only charity.sharing your joy is the only gratitude..it needs guts to be lover because love demands one of the greatest things in life-the surrender of ego,then miracles happens and love comes rushing in.Pride is the enemy of love.possesiveness,anger attachment and non attachment both are its offspring.....drop all this and you are covered with devine love.love of meera.love of radha.......and then we come to know that love is not only a passion,love is not only emotion.love is a deep understanding that somebody somehow completes you.love gives freedom to be yourself...love gives you the first insight into etenity,love is only experience that transcends time.If love arises out of harmony,then only we will know a succesfull life,a life full of fullfillment in which love goes on deepening because it doesnt depend on outer anything bt depends something inner,it depends on inner feeling of two hearts beating in same rhythm,that rhthym can go on growing.......my wishes for you...
grow in love....do not fall in love bt rise in love...nourish urself with this life force.......
God blees you!!!!!!!!
there are two words beyond bliss..peace and content.
there is something beyond love.. loving.
there is something beyond the heart and the mind...the being.
there is something beyond all of us that is unknown.. uncertainty is just a manifestation of that supreme so embrace it with purity.
there is something beyond all diversions and wanderlust.. our roots..
enjoy every sunrise and everythign it brings with it and soothe yourself in the night when th emon enlightens ur heart.
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