Co-incidence or a sign?

For some unknown reason I downloaded MJ's songs yesterday and day before. Today, yahoo tells me he is dead. Had it not been for my spiritual keenness, I wouldn't have a given a thought to what seems like a co-incidence.

He did tell me theres nothing like co-incidences. There are signs everywhere.. you just need to develop your senses to identify them.

I am sure many like me must have unknowingly remembered Michael and must be taken aback by the news of his demise today. The collective conscience of the world is so powerful that once you become sensitive to it you start seeing how one person's(here Michael's) vibrations can send ripples in the entire pool of the unconscious.

Michael Rest In Peace.

Roz poochti hai khush hun ke nahi. Uski aankhen bhi soojh gayi hongi rote rote. Kya kahun main ke kaise har din ek ladai hai galat soch ke khilaf. Kya zindagi hai... Jab duniyadaari ki samajh nahi thi tab sab saath the. Aur ab.. sab kuch chhut ta ja raha hai.

This too shall pass...

Today he puts an end to a very old friendship. Old it is, time wise not fondness wise. He doesn't speak about it but he feels it deep inside. He is an innocent man and has learnt to live with betrayals and deceits over a long span of time.

He cannot teach filth to anyone when he has always practiced purity and compassion. These days God has stopped making men like him.

Reckon it is time to resort to no explanations again...

Talk to the Sun

Sounds weird? Well that’s one of the things G taught me at SM. My morning walks were the most rerfreshing. Imagine the yogic stroll near the banks of Ganges. In the winters when the sun is not so severe, when its rays hit the water illuminating the mountains. Everyday there was something fresh about the mystic combination of sun, mountains and the Ganga.

The pic here is of the sunrise at Thor at 5:30 am. The closest to the sunrise I experienced everyday at SM.

G and me

Always at some point of life we come across people, places or things which influence us deeply. Sadhana Mandir is one such place and G is one such MBO(mind body organism) in my life, thinking of who re-instates my faith in the existence of selfless human beings.

I dedicated a lot of time to myself undoing the old and making space for the new. I reckon getting rid of trash on a regular basis is a must. My experience at SM helped me do that. I once talked about Utility Chamber as a place where I could face things the way they were and let go of them. SM is better than that. Today when I close my eyes I can smell Sadhana Mandir, feel the tranquil surroundings, and listen to the gurgling of the Ganga outside the ashram.

When I learnt to meditate, I had a challenge gauging the effects of it. Possibly because I was trying to relax in an already serene and a pious environment (I am talking about the ashram I had learnt it at). But today when I go into Shavasan after a day’s work, I feel a wave of relaxation sweeping through and I recall G's words. He'd told me he was building in me strong tissue memories. The way they have been engraved in my mind, these tissue memories help me stay connected with what I hold in the highest light, the process of living in the world yet above it.

Yesterday when I sat down with dad to meditate and began de-conditioning, I re-did a lot of things. It was like the scene from Unfaithful where Connie (Diane Lane) thinks about the first time she meets Paul (Oliver Martinez) by chance and gets into this 'What-if I had not gone upstairs with him for coffee' mode. For me it was a conscious effort to undo all the entangled thoughts and surrender them to the Divine One.

G reconditioned me, transformed me and brought me closer to the Nidhi I once was, the Nidhi I had lost somewhere, the Nidhi that should be, the Nidhi that is. I cannot thank G for he won’t take that. I remember he believes in delayed gratifications. And that would happen only when I ‘build my life around Sadhana and not otherwise’.