Rains...Romantic!

There are times when I think that my heart may never be able to hold all the love, the joy, the hope and the gratitude I feel for you.
But always there's another little place inside with just enough room and once again I can hold all of you, take you into the very center of my life, here where you belong in the everywhere of my heart, beloved one.
If I could simply give all I feel instead of these few words you'd know how truly and how deeply I love You...

An expectant Nidhi on a rainy day...

Neither a morbid affection,
nor a slave's desire,
Neither a physical attraction,
nor an igniting fire.
A feeling without expression,
a distance without sadness.
An act without reaction,
a fulfilled wish without happiness.
Emerges from the denizens of the deep,
stretches beyond the petty fervour.
Love, as I perceive it,
that goes beyond the realms of anticipation,
Love, as I want it,
that is free from the shackles of time.
Love, if fills my world,
then how I wonder,
expectations found themselves, in me, a habitat!!!

Rains...Infectious!

They are magic! They cast a spell on me always. There never has been a time when the raindrops have failed to revive my mood. This time though I thought they would have an all together different meaning for me. Thank God!!! They don't!!! I am all well, doing good!!! My Sunday's never been better. I am happy. It should never stop drizzling. It should go on raining. Continue till I start shivering. Till I turn cold and my mind is numb. I don't want to think. Stop the process of analyzing the ifs and buts of a situation. I don't want to do that anymore. I just want to take life as it comes. I really wish I had a remote to control my mind that had a stop button. I want to be free. Free from the shackles of expectations. Learning to letting go is a long process and am into it. Everything happens gradually. All I can do is wait for the best to happen. But till then rain is my all time pal. Holding me when I am sad, cuddling me when I need to be pampered and covering up, making tears and water inseparable.
Rain- I am glad you have come.

Aah-Life!!

Few times in life you feel as if you couldnt have been better! This is one such time! Results out..nothing that good..just wat I deserved! But the number of congratulations I received from all the people I have met and not. Its a heavenly feeling!! A huge thanks to all of them and to The One who binds me with them...

My all...

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it’s wrong to love you
Then my heart just won’t let me be right
Cause I’ve drowned in you
And I won’t pull through
Without you by my side
I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all for your love tonight
Baby can you feel me
Imagining I’m looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you’re so far
Like a distant star
I’m wishing on tonight...

Needy me Part II

=> An empty road, trees grown on the sides. A dark cloudy evening that signals arrival of the monsoon. The smell of rain in the air. The wet soil. The bored plants that wait to be grazed over by the herd. The delay,the wait. The clouds still indicate the arrival as they start getting darker, more intense with a thunderbolt accompanying them now. It has been long and quite some wait now. With every flash in the sky the hopes get higher and the expectant faces keep shooting glances at the sky. "It should rain, it should rain now.", the heart prays. And then a little droplet falls somewhere on face, so little that it even fails to wet the fingertips. As the tips still grope for the little thing another one falls on the hand and yes! its the rain finally. The face brightens up, the smile is evident. And theres one more drop on the cheek and one on the lips and before realizing its a down pour....

Welcome to the monsoons!!! It high time this side of mother earth saw you.


=> Barren land. Mountains. Rocky roads. A bumpy ride in a vintage car...A convertible maybe?? Norah Jones singing "My heart is drenched in wine, you'll be on my mind...". Laughter, giggles, hugs and stolen kisses. Saying "I Love You.."


=> Fireplace in an ancient house. Snowfall. Grandma's rocking chair. A bean bag. A soft velvety mattress. And this-

"Like a flower
Waiting to bloom
Like a light bulb
In a dark room
I'm just sitting here waiting for you
To come on home and turn me on

Like the desert waiting for the rain
Like a school kid waiting for the spring
Im just sitting here waiting for you
To come on home and turn me on

My poor heart
It's been so dark
Since you've been gone
After all you're the one who turns me off
You're the only one who can turn me back on

My hi-fi is waiting for a new tune
My glass is waiting for some fresh ice cubes
I'm just sitting here waiting for you
To come on home and turn me on"



=> The ocean. The lazy winds. The ruffled unruly hair. Grains of sand on the face.The white sand. The salty kiss. And the heart singing-

"It's not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me, oh no
It's just the nearness of you

It isn't your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation, oh no
It's just the nearness of you

When you're in my arms and I feel you so close to me
All my wildest dreams came true

I need no soft lights to enchant me
If you'll only grant me the right
To hold you ever so tight
And to feel in the night the nearness of you."



=> A long summer night. The hot air. The air conditioner of the car. The much needed conversation. Wishing the time never moved any further. The desire to be together. Being together. The holding of hands. A peck on the cheeks. A beautiful morning. Understanding "I Love You...". And the assurance.

Needy me!!!!

Love
sleep
food
tattoo
love
love
love
assurance
rains
dance
a clear sky
a car
stilettos
chocolate chip ice-creeeeeeam
devils food cake
johnny depp
hair color
a horse tattoo
long finger nails
manicure
pedicure
nose job
thumb replacement
tummy tuck
earrings
low rise cargos
snickers
halters
a new bed
my pillow
the right side
sound sleep
clear head
Love
Love
Love
A
P
assurance
my circle
alcohol
phillies
an empty road
solitude
a dungeon
darkness
solitude
Love
Ma
Pa
hugs
kisses
Love
theatre
movies
less flab
no paunch
Friends
straight forwardness
courage
desert
island
water
strength
Love
assurance
tentacles
fins
wings
fresh air
clouds
uninterrupted thoughts
Love
assurance...