She was not waiting for her ideal man to arrive. But he did come along. Love did intoxicate her. She was living a dream. She built her life around him, his ideals, his desires. She loved him regardless of boundaries, of distances, of anything that could possibly weaken her faith in him. She found inspiration in his aspirations. She was glad they both understood the importance of space and freedom. There was not a speck of doubt why this association wouldn't work out.
What she failed to notice was their different set of fundamentals. The paths they chose were way too parallel to meet. He was striving everyday to be on the top, alone. She wanted to attain all her goals with him around. He was strong headed. She was an idealist. He had built his life around work. She built hers around him. He longed for someone to care. She knew how to love selflessly. He said she'd changed him. She'd believed it. He wanted to love her on his terms. She hated being bounded. She rebelled. He withdrew and her perfect world was torn to pieces.
She picked the pieces up and prioritised her life again. She has moved on in a big way. The ideal man is replaced by career. She sees things with more clarity now but refraines from expressing it. However strained she might be, she never comes across as depressed because the innocence is still alive in her. The kid is still inside her. She smiles from the heart, she laughs her lungs out. She has friends who love her and tell her so. Wise as this all may sound, the forceful transition has benumbed her.
The jolt has been an eye opener. She has got what she lacked in oodles - her self esteem. She stands with her arms wide open to welcome life again. She is ready for a fresh start. But is she ready for what is on offer? She understands compassion, but doesn't that exist in all the relationships. Is it to be love as in between a man and woman that she needs to get into? Is she even ready for it? No, maybe never again. She is not seeking love and if at all she is.. she is looking for it in wrong places. And the worst of all... she knows IT.
2 comments:
The Story is acceptable but don't you think it too early to make a point that she wont fall in love again. She loves positivity, compassion and moreover she feels it from heart. Such person cant stay without love. They will shower their love to the world and equally world will love them.
..hey sweetheart...u have moved from Gray to Blue...big Hug :D
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